Thursday, January 28

Targeted Killing

Morning in University
I tell myself "work hard today" ^^


7.34am
I have been reading an article of "The CIA Has Secret. Hello?"
written by Robert Baer in July'09 post of TIME
a short briefing stated below...
The brouhaha over the assassination plan is classic Washington. But it could do real harm.

looking this beautiful sentences
i have totally out of idea
however, reading through article
It's somehow interesting
hmmm....Assassination...Fidel Castro....

8.02am
I'm reading Jeffrey Kluger- "Moon Walkers"
A lunar journey is hard...but not as hard as coming home when the mission is done. Forty years after the firsh moon landing, the nature of the men who made the trips may be the deepest mystery of all.
a 79 uncle Buzz Aldrin has a close face shoot next on the page
who walked on the moon on Apollo 11, 1966
something i should know more about..astronaut

9.38am now
class starting soon
I should pretend working hard in Library now
This is me, good girl Lyn ^^

Wednesday, January 27

gimme luck,

再次失眠,是第几次?
关上灯,盖上被,还可以失眠
天啊~ 为什么不让我早睡早起

妈妈说我2010年没什么luck 是真的
wireless又再次发神经
我只好偷偷用家里的notebook blogging
希望没有人发现
不然就到我姐姐发神经了
虽然她每天都会例行公事...

*****

在一阵不知所措的日子里
失去目标的时候
秉持着船到桥头自然直的精神
最后我到站了 哈

还是很老套的一句
set your goal

时间不管流失了多少年
如果它是meaningful,开心的
何必在意它的流逝
如果是腐蚀般的度过
又有什么好骄傲的?

it's no use looking back or wondering
是遗憾 是梦想成真
我想还要看看自己
希望总是在身边 ^-^

2012,法国我来了!!

Wednesday, January 20

kampar city.

i was sitting at mamak kampar
tasting delicious roti bom cheese
and maggi goreng kosong for my supper
on this precious moment

but my phone ring
that's warm~
i thought she gonna caring me
**touching**

f**k!!

why you so stingy for everything
i mean nothing please
just be xin xiong kuan guang always
peace~~~

but i'm not peace anymore
every times such a great moment
would spoil always
i hate this...
then after sleeping everything will gone

why i have to be such position?
i'm trying to be peaceful
and i'm not even piss off everytime you did bad for me
it doesn't means you did nothing
when i'm silent

you just conservative
sensitive
stingy
and low EQ

god!
fine, tomorrow i'm going to cameron
everything will be great
have a nice trip =)
love Thew Mah, Chyn, Vicky, Kok Siong, Zhenz & YuSiew

for jo them
we have been long time didn't catch up la!!
bear don't want me anymore >.<

Bonsoir ^-^

Sunday, January 17

on turning point.

yesterday, LayYee welcome party
she has been waiting for 4months
I, 8months
oh là là! such a long time
suddenly goes back to this
feeling.......

im getting older?
remember people used to reply me every time i meet new friend,
"you're so young!"
but now is turning to mine telling people,
"you're so young!"
hell~~~~~

******

i broke my record somehow
more than 2days
52 hours wasn't sleep
it started since thurs night my sister wake up me at 1am

hum, here to go...
Friday night catch up with Val at Library
going back finish my Français homework after that

Sat, rushing to class at the early morning
attended a blurring class = ='
this is week9
exam would be held on next sat, hell~~~

back to chong hwa meeting at noon
discuss those stupid name list again

rush back home before night
and going to Val house
then *zouk* clogging my mind all the night
finally sleep at 5am =)

hu~~~ that's cisin! >.<'
that wasn't perfect
because I missed Candy's dinner = ='
apology...

Friday, January 15

0度 C (C for confidence)

i'm wondering who is *GO* = =''

*****

We always face a problem..
feel like blogging but wordless

******

2010新的开始
我陷入困境

我觉得自己很丑
左看右看越来越丑
自信心跌入谷底

以前觉得自己不美,也不至于丑
就是个平凡的女生
很多时候也不太在意别人的眼光
自信的觉得我不丑

现在....处于自暴自弃状态
拍照也不选了,觉得怎么拍都丑
我投降了...

从几时开始?
从我不再club跳舞开始
那只是个预兆,对自己身材的不满
直到最近我才发觉原来事情进展得这么serious了
我不是不美,是很丑

一个人没有自信是这世界最糟糕的事。

Wednesday, January 13

une neverland

这个礼拜的口头禅,“别惹我!”
我不想的
心情就是不好

当你不知道你应该怎么做的时候
或许你想要逃避
可是你却从来没离开过
你选择了暂时快乐
当再也快乐不起来的时候
我只能说“别惹我”

*****

这个时候
从21还没到22的时候
大家又忙着说你是22的时候
你发觉你希望去实践的事情渐行渐远

过去对你来说没有什么是不可能的
一直抱着希望的心情破灭
不小心看清定局的时候
原来是这么的失落

这种尴尬期你需要自己调节
你需要不一样的心境

*****

走失是不是为了让自己找到另一个入口?
我终于明白Peter Pan想往Neverland的心情....

Thursday, January 7

解剖我

当往事只能回味的时候...

不知道为什么
总是不会太把大家或自己的事放在心上
是大方还是懵嚓嚓
还是像joanne说的“与世无争”
可以这样赞自己吗

在中学的日子,印象中模模糊糊
你问我快乐的日子,有点难说
靠着大家你一句我一句的精神
回忆慢慢浮现

在我小小的脑袋里
装的只有那些我恨之入骨的
像初二的时候被香菇头屈作弊
初三的时候跟班主任菊花365回战
还是高二的时候被副校长冯景萍看不起
为人师表不是有教无类吗,我觉得不可原谅
所以这些披着人皮的动物,应分列为*讨厌*

我希望下次在Library遇到矮婆 XP


至于同学之间,我都不记得了
反正应该就只是普通的不顺眼而已 not big deal
当然像贱华,E女这种经典的同学
他们依然在我心里留下重要的位置

正如我2010年新title,try to love
我已经在努力爱着身边的人了
past tense的人物,就让他们继续保留宝座
这也不是什么big deal,我只是爱讲而已
不是真心的 :P
不过有些爱不到就是爱不到了...抱歉


番外篇
我没有想过我还会再一次见到雌雄同体
俊伟扮的做爱声音,很难不记得

待续

Wednesday, January 6

rhythmic.


Hohohoho, i get a new skin for my diary
a new title "try to love..." (could you understand?)
懵嚓嚓 get an account of twitter
and some lovely classic music ^^

*Para bailar La Bamba*
*Para bailar La Bamba* La Bamba

*They've been spending most their lives*
*Living in a pastime paradise* Pastime Paradise

*I found my thrill*
*On Blueberry Hill* Blueberry Hill

*(Down, Booogie, Down, Boogie...)*
*Lets Groove tonight* Lets Groove

that's great rhythm~
yea! enjoy it =)

Sunday, January 3

review of thousand nine

third day of 2010
i'm feeling not so good
i hope there is still 2009
it's a wonderful year for me

i have a nice begin with Val at the year started
we club for 8 weeks continuously, or maybe more than that
the last one is 14feb, Valentine day, at Zouk
and we went through our first trip at Malaka

Feb,
after she went back Australia
i concentrated my studies in 2-3months
then there is my sis's engagement

May,
for usual, my exam held on this month

June,
i finished exam
but feeling so bad in this time
nobody was understand me
i confused
i need some fresh air, some new influences

i took a bag, feel like going to Perhentian
but was stopped
i never experienced such depression in my life

July,
i worked in a Norway company
met a lot of strong people and nice colleague
my head of finance department
A Malaysian women who impressed me a lot
title: vice president of finance department in branches of Asia Pacific&USA
although i have not much of related
with her or those Norwegian big people
that's satisfied.

same time, i take Français Class finally
make a dream comes true...a dream since small

Aug,
i made the decision
i end up my quest net
i understand what i love and what is not
more than ever
that's a good lesson i have been tried

Sept,
my 2nd year started
result came out
i failed one and a half subject
the most terrible things i done in the year

at the same time
i bought a ticket to Cambodia
depart at 27 of Sept
spent a wonderful trip i have had ever in this 6days
i met uncle tim, met shawn, met yenny tianda
and found a true friend, a good travel partner :)
*travel is a good way to understand better yourself*

Oct,
I came back at 2nd
Everything is like start over
my mind is not clogged up anymore
i'm feeling great for everything now

few weeks after sinyee ,zhaoying & i went to PD road trip
beautiful sunset and comfortable beach
had a great one

Nov,
i went to Cameron
with my sister
it's a toughest job ever

Dec,
we have a special road trip to Melaka
didn't eat so much but pictures alot

two days after
my 20dollars black box reached
look at my first lomo camera
excited and speechless

Genting follow after
have spent a weird weekend with my UOL classmate

21st, yunn's 21st birthday
spent a great day in Garden
and of course lala is nice =)

then there is Christmas
a warming dinner with my high school friends

26th, wang's birthday
we spent a crazy night, crazy ever trust me
i lost control of myself, terrible

31st to welcome a happy new year
i went to pheifang house bbq with college friends
and karaoke along the midnight of 2010

guess what i was doing on 12am?
I wasn't counting down with friends
I was bathing XD
how special to welcome my 2010
is it means be clean in 2010? =)