F

我真的生气
直到这一刻依然生气

讨厌失控的感觉
因为很讨厌
最讨厌了

我是小气鬼
就是如此地执着

怎样

***
今天收到诗韵给我的生日礼物
物轻情意重 我真的感受得到

姐姐回了夫家
我大方的邀请朋友们到我家坐客

朋友x很好心地帮我拿着 谢谢
可是这份心肠无法抵消他让我抓狂这一回事

我真的失控了
要知道我连一本杂志带入厕所这一回事都无法接受
你要让我接受我的生日礼物放在垃圾桶上
那你登天吧

我已经说了这是我的生日礼物
难道还不够明确它对我的意义吗？

你明白我是个回家会即刻冲凉的人
摸了jojo会洗手的人
难道我的性格不够明确吗？

你拿着我珍贵的礼物
放上了垃圾桶的弃烟盖上
之后很开心的进了升降机
当成扇子大把大把的扇着我
你不太了解我是个小洁癖的人 加上它是我的礼物
你凭什么可以让我觉得这是件很好玩的事

相反的
很抱歉的说
真的很反感

我失控的时候
或许你觉得很开心
说实话我真的很生气

有些事情即使道歉了也没有意义
更何况是没有

我们都说大家都很了解对方的性格 缺点
才会如此地真实
显然你们对我的了解太少了
我是个很执着的人
不喜欢的永远也不喜欢

如果时间可以重来
那你replay吧

***
相信
类似的事情不是第一次发生了
如果朋友x觉得这样的方式可以取悦大家
那你继续吧

事实上大家心里都知道
这种感觉 非常反感

我只能说
别等失去了才来后悔
又如何
要知道发生后不能当没发生

你要持着你的“取悦”方式
别来对我 我的执著你无法想像
我们永远都会对你说“适可而止”

单身贵族

单身一族过的生活就是
享受单身
到处party不是问题
到处都是target
哈哈哈哈

******

最近很多人向我提出一个问题
“为什么会单身？"
我竟然搭不上话来
从来没有想过的问题
pop一声地漂浮在头上

我告诉朋友们记得介绍男生给我哦
他们真的对我很好 多年的朋友！
他们说他们要把肥肥的朋友介绍给我 妈妈的
再不然就是少爷仔
NO NO NO
我说我要那种跟他一起挨出来才富有的
挨过的感情才可贵
啊哈哈哈哈 高难度
蓝筹股不容易找

他们说男生年纪大okay 女生老了就不行
虽然我也认同三十后的男生最man
所以我又跟我的朋友们说
如果我以后嫁不出去
只好回来找你们
结果大家都嫌弃我 哈哈哈

我只好默默地存钱建个漂亮的姑婆屋
单身吧 =P

一个

不知道是不是过去想法太多
来到这里 脑袋空空


如果可以撇开背景 记忆
我也想要有正常的思维 关系 生活


世界就是没有什么是相同的
我们总有自己的过去 现在 未来
人原来是很独特的
做个自己 考倒了我

贝林的梯子

话语刚落
有点失望
即使自己有过多少丝的念头
也不曾想过有一天你告诉我，放弃吧

余秋雨《人生风景》里有这么一句
...贝林先生说:"我把梯子搁错了墙，爬到了墙顶才知道，搁错了。"

不知道搁错了，哪会明白搁对了这一件事，我说的
谁也不会明白自己的一生
等我死了的那一天，我再告诉你
这一生里我把梯子都放哪了

滚开去！

我在我自己的生命里努力
没有人再清楚得过我的心情
开心的伤心的
只有我可以感受

随你的想法
别再告诉我你不明白
我没有心情为了这些那些而伤心

我只想大大声的说
就让我活下去！！！！！！

***

真的不知道在写什么
现在只想大大声地呼吸
~~呼
~~呼
~~呼

L'alphabet français

Good to revise ^^

un jour heureux

--20 Novembre, Samedi--

 The day i meet SY after 5 months...
She looks great ^-^
The one who really working hard in life ♥
 
 I luv I luv NY =)

*** *** ***

Have a bikini is just like a dream of your first wedding dress =)
Dress up yourself and stay young. XOXO~

I got mine finally, luv it ^-^

CS Project

今天偷懒了，我也不知道为什么自己完完全全地昏睡到8.40am，做梦也断断续续毫无连接，还要遇到江毅和他的新女友、Roy和他的新女友，真的是有够离谱！为什么不发点自己与老外的情史？

话说回来，来到十一月的第一天，我默默地害怕了起来。临睡前，一眨眼才意识到...那个早在九个月前拟定的计划，现在开始倒数十一个星期！！我无法接受这个长期以来标签“遥远”的计划就要来临，显然无论是身心还是身体上我都在处于一种被吓着的状态。除了$$以外，行程、住宿、相机，学业，我都还没有准备。

这十一个星期莫名其妙地变得紧凑了。

She is so right.

"if you can take the responsibility for your studies, then at the end of it you’ll find you’ve managed to get your life in order too"

很爱很爱快乐

比起过去，我快乐多了。

days in 90s

Lomography began with a fateful encounter in the early 1990s when two students in Vienna, Austria, stumbled upon the Lomo Kompakt Automat – a small, enigmatic Russian camera. Mindlessly taking the shot from the hip, and sometimes looking through the viewfinder, they were astounded with the mindblowing photos that it produced – the colours were vibrant, with deep saturation and vignettes that framed the shot – it was nothing like they had seen before! Upon returning home, friends wanted their own Lomo LC-A, igniting a new style of artistic experimental photography that we now know as Lomography!

 

It traveled from Poland to Malaysia

13days of journey

*fragile*

it is really fragile.

*Open the box* dang dang~

You're in my house now ;)

My very first SLR, with no digital system, i come back to 1990s.

A Russia camera - LOMO LC-A, my 22nd birthday present
^^ Joyeux Anniversaire

-13 Octobre 2010-

生日快乐

不知道为什么，看见大家的祝贺好开心
原来我并没有想像中的寂寞^^
谢谢♥

Je Prie

Je prie pour une vie meilleure...et heureux pour toujours...
I pray for a better life...and happy ever...

20100526 Sunny Islands

It was not the next day right after my exam, but for YennYee, YeeLin and Renee. WaiSze and I had been waiting for 13 days, it never let us diminishing our excitement though.

DAY 1

 

Carry a bag and swimsuit, we took the early flight to Kota Bharu. 45 minutes air way was just a started of the journey to Perhentian. There was another 45 minutes of airport transfer to jetty, Kuala Besut, and 45 minutes of boat transfer followed. It may not the best choice of transportation you might think.

 

Looking on this scene far away on boat, i was pretty look forward to this such beautiful islands. This is also the beach in front of our chalet that we were spending most of the times in Perhentian!! Isn't it so nice?

 

Reviewing by Trip Advisor, we found the famous Abdul Chalet in Perhentian Besar. A Seaview Family Chalet is only cost us RM220 per night, plus extra mattress, ended up in RM250. I could said that it's very valuable.

The Perhentian Islands are two islands named Pulau Perhentian Kecil and Pulau Perhentian Besar.

After a long ride of transfer from KL to Perhentian, we soon get out of self to Perhentian Kecil, cross over the sea. Order the famous Lassi is a must, and had delicious spaghetti in island, we had a tolerable lunch in Panorama Restaurant, which the one we planned to stay at the first place.

We were not wearing a small piece of bikini, nor beautiful beachwear even, walking on the hot but comfortable beach was quite enjoyable too.

We were asked for RM10 an umbrella. Lying under the sun, how i wish i could be tan too ;P just like how the western do.

See how Asian were look like in a beautiful beach. Ahahaha, much more better than those long sleeves for sure xD

Akira baby was sitting on the beach^^

DAY 2

We woke up for Sunrise at 6am, how romantic it was...but...I forgot Papa-sun is blocked by Perhentian Kecil. haha! so, shooting for jumping seems like the only way we could do...

Five pretties in Perhentian ^^

After breakfast, we were soon to get into boat for our Redang snorkeling trip. Ya, it was some comments that we shouldn't go to Redang snorkeling, anyway...most of them insist. (YY was fainting all the way, how poor she was~)

Playing the BIG ping pong that the handsome guy give us, it is actually had fun tho we were not really know how to play this.

And floating on the water bed, was the most relaxing time in Island. We were two who are not really know swimming that we only floating in somewhere ankle reachable. When YY join us, she was kind to assist us testing the water level so that we won't go far. But we made such a too much noise that we kept shocked by the water level due to the sharp slant, had catched most of the tourist attention :P

Definitely there is something happened. It was a long story that dump and stupid ever! YY felt so speechless that she only want to sleep now! and the weapons...anything you can see in picture, were all spread on bed; doorway were stuffed too. haha! *rofl*

DAY 3

The next morning, i shoot the last frame for our ending of this WONDERFUL trip ^^

The first trip with UOL classmate, it had so much fun and dumb. From exciting till butt painful, all were happened at this beautiful islands. Sea sand sun, I miss it so much!!

想要个什么样的男生？

如果可以
我要个跟我一样疯狂在乱世中追求生活的男生，哈哈

曾几何时大家都说我要求高
交叉交叉，这不成立
我都常说要有fu，通常有fu的都..."唉"...
我tassy不好，赞同？
只不过我对一般事物的审美观让世人误解了我
所以我年少无知的时候才会说对于另一半我要求一点都不高！

渐渐地，我开始追求不一样的价值观的时候
我开始认真地思考这个问题
其实自己的要求也不太低...

对于生活的态度
我开始舍弃普遍上认为重要的"结果"而着重于"过程"
我开始在意自己每天是不是快乐、幸福
未来总有太多的未知
我不太清楚自己的生命有多少
只想好好的珍惜当下

而让我着迷的是眼前的世界
不是因为时下流行背包自助、每走一个国家就很威水(很烂的形容词xD)诸如此类
只是每走一步都让我觉得活在这世上很幸运
想要把世界概括眼里
把每一份感情寄托于世界，好好体验
何必模模糊糊追求一些虚无缥缈带不走的事物
逝世的那一天只有感觉　会永远留下
你问我为什么总是喜欢印度中东南美非洲而不是台湾日本香港
也许这是你要的答案

一个跟我一起的男生
我希望他骨子里也跟我一样，淌着热血。

我的要求是不是又高了？ hehe

un rêre

I was back to French after three months of holiday. In the first day of the upper level-Intermediate II, excepting i'm blurring along in class, we are requested to write a short essay about "un rêre", a dream place to live...

J'ai un rêre, pas ne un rêre maison mais un endroit.
(I have a dream, not a dream house but a place.)

J'habite dans le un petit ville que à côté de la mer.
(I live in a small town that beside the sea.)

C'est un bel endroit.
(It's a beautiful place.)

Tôt le matin, des gens marche le long dé la mer;
Le soir, vielles pesonnes assis sur le banc regarder couché de soleil.
(In the early morning, peoples are walking along the sea;
In evening, old peoples sit on the bench looking for sunset.)

C'est le meilleur moyen de vivre.
(This is the best way to live.)

the original idea is....

我有一个梦想，这不是一个梦想的住宅，是一个地方。
我希望住在一个海边小镇，有西班牙曲风飘逸的地方，有油墨味阵阵飘过的地方。
这是一个漂亮的小镇。
每天早晨，行走在海堤上；日落时分，老人相互依偎的场景。
这是个那么向往的生活方式。

My writing is just....like a joke.
A funny and 不知所谓 essay.
Listening and speaking poor even T.T

-today is 6 Septembre 2010, Lundi-

failure doesn't counts

Thanks cyee bring me along for this trip

I was feeling awful in past few days, maybe past few months

though i always heeheehaha along with friends

eating delicious exxy food 

talking loud about my new hobbies, backpacking/nikon

nightmare about zombies....

All the negativities were just 'pop!' dropped on the muddy road along my sweat 

I do feeling better

when psychically exhausted offset the tiring of mind

everything has a new started 

As my professor said

never say give up 

it doesn't matter how long you need to go

one day you would achieve it

and when faith and opportunity come

that is your destiny 

I appreciate all of the advises and encourages

In the process of studying UOL 

the most harder time is when you losing, confusing yourself 

I believe if there is your lowest point, you would never be lowest

that's the mean that your are going to another high peak

UOL is just fair

you got what you have put

1 is always 1

putting 1unit of input is always 1unit of output could be produce 

it never goes wrong

I deserved for how much i had put

That's alright

Failure of today doesn't means anything

you never know what is coming next

make it true!

I am just nervous like how Jojo shock by thunder in raining day...sitting diam diam on her pan, that's how she behave.

I am waiting for the day..the day i can shout "yes! i pass all the subjects!", and say the nervous and insomnia for the past few months do reserve a value.

The only thing other than pray hard, i breath deep and tell myself, no matter what the result would be, i will bear for it. Since the first day i made the decision, i bear for the consequences it stands.

This three months was a devil holiday ever....i will release on 1st of September soon.

God, you tell me what i deserve to? a shorter life? a broken heart? or a graduation on time? what about my postgraduate studies?

I don't want a dream, i want it be true.

常乐

“可是你知道吗？其实还有很多国家连煤气都没有，过着生火煮饭的生活，我们不是很好了吗？”
“我们哪里可以跟他们比，人要向前看，才会有进步！”

我觉得你们说得那么恶劣，要嘛你参政，做个第二个奥巴马，要嘛别在哀怨这个国家了呗。

的确我们站立着的这片土地是那么的不平等，那么的呆滞；看着身边齐步的国家被挂上“先进国”，而我们依然被地理课本标签为“发展中国家”，可以感觉我们国家的政治发展确实有待改进。

可是要成为“先进国”背后需要付出的代价...恒河沙数。日本拿活生生的中国人来实验，可怕吗？美军的radiation秘密研究，不可怕吗？

我们活在一个没有饥荒、恶疾、火山、洪水、地震、枪林弹雨、政治叛变、生化实验、Death Valley死寂的地理位置，拥有抵御全球暖化的大片热带雨林，在一个这么和平的地方，人们为什么不可以知足...常乐？

根据2009年的《The World Factbook》，世界GDP (Gross Domestic Product) ranking，马来西亚位榜上62名次，活在拥有196个国家的星球上，马来西亚差得让你活在哀怨里吗？

tornado

可不可以有强烈的风
把所有情绪吹走  留下灵魂

张开双手
抓不住的风就像抓不住的思想
抓不住的思想就像抓不住的风

飘飘荡荡
哪怕只有天知道
也要有那么一个明白过

'fri:dəm

Freedom ['fri:dəm] n.
It stands for securing to everyone an equal opportunity for life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.

*****

i will leave one day
because that's the only way i could survive
it doesn't mean physically freedom of oneself but something inner
perhaps...i was just born to be

-10 Août 1999-

每次看到十岁大的阿瑸，总让我想起...
原来当时我也只不过是个小孩

这是梦境中的现实

我开始清楚
*心里没有那个位置*的原因

我迷恋着的是个不属于我的世界
身边路过的亚洲男生早已钓不住我的视线

我爱的原来是那个背着背包的西方脸孔
大祸！

cavities

can you imagine if you got 8 decayed teeth?

if i had not seen doctor for cleaning
i afraid i will soon suffer by toothache
and probably toothless now

I had filled 6 decayed teeth in the past two months
2 more waiting to fill, included root canal T.T
and there are three teeth is been infected

now i realized how important to take care of yourself
there is not only skin care we have to concern
every single organ is equally important!

i shall quit liquor for my own good
and also lesser junk food!!

please visit http://www.webmd.com/oral-health/
and make cleaning treatment for every six months!!

INCEPTION

I was really shocked about this movie, because there is been a long time i have not truly watching a movie so carefully. This is another amazing master piece directed by Christopher Nolan and starring Leonardo Dicaprio. Since after "Shutter Island", i was impressed about Leo's acting, his emotion is truly infected me. And this, INCEPTION, is the other best movie ever experience! There is no other like him.

-31 Julio 2010-

im sick.

we are living in a different world tho we are pulsing a same type of blood.
you are just hate 80s like how 40s hate your mother.
we are all 80s?
what's the matter?

this bloody world, it's just ridiculous than i know.

breath harder

i have been thinking a lot lately. when im bathing, when im working, when im walking, when im sleeping. until it gives me a headache...about? im not sure, some random things or some serious issues or worries maybe. just not going so well :'(

smile to the world. tomorrow i would breath better...

叉叉叉不在了

不自觉
其实我也一样执着

记得以前每次玩真心话大冒险
大家都喜欢问我这个问题
尽管每次答案都一样

“我心里没有人”

“不可能”

“真的没有”
“那上一个呢”
“你不认识的”

“不理”

“xxx”

“真的不认识”

现在想起
我快连这个人的名字和样子都不记得了

初二的时候我认识、喜欢上他
知道没有结果的时候我用了两年
到了高中我依然不喜欢提起这个人
总是想要默默地否认他在我生活中存在过
直到这几年才发觉再也不抗拒他存在过的事实
原来心里没有了那个位置

算一算，其实我跟大家一样...执着

c'est Julio

其实我有很多东西想写
可是过了的感觉很难提

******
一号。星期四

放上新playlist
疯狂爱上*feeling good*
~bird flying high you know how i feel~

******
二号。星期五

被一个莫名其妙的老女人羞辱
我只想说我是个礼貌的女生
出乎意料的原来我的本质是如此的善良

一直都际遇很好的时候
就不知觉忽视了一些社会上不好的元素
我真的还很单纯，和迟钝

如果再一次遇到她
我依然会对她说声谢谢
别人如何看待我没有想象中的重要

口袋里有多少钱并不能等代表什么
它本身的意义从来就不存在

******
七号。星期三

爵士、婚纱
这是个浪漫的夜晚
也有一个看了会让我不舒服的女生 *反感*

觉得自己处理感觉的level进步了
至少我不会再看到或听到的情况下反胃、厌恶
默默的忽视她是我对人类的尊重
显然我还是需要礼貌上望她一眼，微笑点点头
因为我是camera lady = ='

这比我预期中有点不太一样

******
八号。星期四

这天开始我爱上Nikon
做功课做了快一个月
不管在上班的时候、在家闲着的时候、累了的时候
‘朝思暮想’最贴切

原以为我深爱着Canon
家里的G10、老A710、朋友们的单反(SLR)都尽是Canon
留下特好的印象
不过经一番研究和现场试用
我的新欢是D90

“don't obsess about the number of pixels a DSLR cam has.”
这一句让我对像素(picture elements)没有要求
反而体验过4.5fps，我没有办法不要求速度
12800的ISO、HD video mode也没有吸引到我
手上握着D90的感觉，原来质感那么重要

加入傻婆的行列 =)

REBEL T2i *like*

i hope the next morning when i wake up will see this up on my desk =)

♥Canon delighting you always

四天好像四年

不知道这是打了第几份工
可是已经没有以前那种害怕陌生的感觉

******

通知。
不知名的情况下
被Sime Darby录取了
只能说上天对我还不错


打工第一天。
被派到AP(Acc Payable)组
满是黑色皮肤的组织让我有点大跌动力
温柔的华人是我的team leader
总算有点安慰

不过黑色皮肤们也不见得是我们普遍上认为的姿态
依然还是有很多不错的同胞
只不过一叠一叠高高的invoice让我忍不住钓大鱼
意思是我真的打瞌睡到一个不可理喻的状态
不过我还是快速的完成了我的工作


打工第二天。
莫名的熟悉感回来了
回到了朝九晚五的感觉

当价值观改变的时候
追求的事物不一样的时候
所有那么无法被接受的事物都变得可以接受了


打工第三天。
原来世界真的很大
我都忘了我的公司Sime Darby Global Service是Accounting & Finance Group
好心的黑皮肤同胞介绍了其他Team的华人给我
终于我可以正常的吃饭了

不过大家还是一样第一个给我的反应认为我是...Trainee。
澄清，我读的是Economics and Finance
从来对Accounting没有兴趣
每次遇到accounting的position，只是为了赚钱


打工第四天。
被同组的‘Ana Favor’(印度帅哥)误认为是PWC的Auditor
我只能说谢谢你的赏识
看来我外表还不差

******

我有时候会相信上天对我们家的职业，眷顾甚多。
我从来都不知道自己到底拥有什么样的才能
让我每次都可以如愿以偿进到大公司

谢谢~

不生气了

原来
是担心
才会这么的恶劣

为什么我从来没有想过？

在我依然内心还有点生气的时候
爸爸说
因为我们没有几十间的屋子
我明白了

不是观点不同
是我太不成熟

读书人

我真的开始生气了
为什么我的身上就一定要框有“读书人”这个字眼
不论我自己储蓄，自己赚钱也好
身为读书人的我，我什么也不应该做
就连去一个小小的perhentian，也会有voice

多少次大队出门我都很想去
可是每一次我都忍了下来
因为我告诉自己这个钱不应该花
况且我也真没有多余的钱

95%的旅费都是我自己付的
我不能说全部都是我赚的
可是至少我从来没有要求过一分去玩

既使我现在不够钱缴学费
我都愿意出来半工读
到底你们从哪里看出来我真的不想读了
到底读书人为什么就一定要循规蹈矩读书

是不是我爱玩，就是不认真读书

FUCK。

保存温度

什么时候我们都变得不太爱笑
看到小时候的照片，原来当时很开心

一家人

生活在大家普遍上理解的程度
我们是一家人
可是很多东西不是那么的简单
或许我希望自己可以更加的独立
那么事情可以简单得多

我们就不是普遍上理解的关系

大报料！

我是个容易快乐，容易生气，容易烦恼的人
可是只要一睡醒，一眨眼，什么也不记得了

虽然刚刚google的时候把这个重复过两百五十七次生气的事情给忘了
可是一log in进我的blogspot.....
唉~

我很讨厌人家叫我不要说话
我觉得这很没礼貌
为什么你就不能好好的听人家说话

每个人都称赞我有个好姐姐
可是某一方面我就是无法接受你们的赞美

她爱说“不要吵”，才开始第一句话，她就叫你不要“吵”
而且“吵”这个字很刺耳，我是在说话！
我真的很纳闷，我有多少次主动找你说话

最后我发觉msn回复的记录最高，而且省下我生气的消耗量 
结果她不喜欢人家msn她，要求我face to face
可是她的“不要吵”，是人都没有办法接话！
哈哈，所以我们依然活在msn沟通时代

next，她除了自己的老公以外
她从来没有复过我的电话
所以我总是相信生女儿是泼出去的水
最后至亲的还是她的老公和还没出生的孩子
所以有时候打电话给她会很伤心

还有，她是个又自私又暴躁的女人
常年更年期中，阴功~
很多人不太认同，觉得她很nice
哈哈，因为她前世是个四川人

就这样我不太喜欢在家里说话.....
什么事情发生也没有可以商量的对象
造成....小时候，她会complaint我不爱与大家商量
这有点强人所难
要我跟一个每天第一句话就说“不要吵”的人说话
我想除非我华语不太好，不然....我应该不是林丽湘
由于哥哥常年在国外
妈妈每天都积极地活在只有她讲没有我讲的通话上
爸爸很忙
所以今时今日在我能力范围以下的事情基本上没有什么讨论的空间

如果你们感受不到我的伤心，依然坚持要赞美我姐姐
.....她最好的地方就是
sponsor我补了两颗牙=三个洞
不过还是剩下一颗大蛀牙和两颗小蛀牙
还有她从我二十岁的时候-2008年，说要赞助我去印度赞助到现在
希望她不要拖到最后我自己去自己给钱

可是很多东西不是用金钱来衡量的....
问题的所在她永远都看不见

L。O。V。E

当初喜欢的
或许现在还喜欢
只是感觉不太一样

a Chinese.

do you ever felt something like "I shame on you"?

the first time i felt of shame on someone
when the one who said "I can't understand la!" this afternoon
i just can't understand how could the words unblushingly come out from your mouth
seems like it turns to be granted for you

don't forget you are born to be a chinese, not an english man
you can give a scorn laugh at my english and french
but you never embarrass about mandarin of yourself
how shame on you

**********

the first time listen a 10min french conversation at ear
and spontaneous to say 'excusez-moi' to a french
when i was queue up at the lrt entrance
it was a mere delusion that it's part of my life at the moment..

-10th June 2010, Thursday-

A-Z

我没有办法像小时候一样的期待

一个连自己都养不起的人

告诉我如何让我不这么思考

--为什么里总有千千万万个理由在支持为什么--

占据

我.....很害怕

颤抖的表面像蓝天一样平静

扬起风沙，我静静地在发呆

恋爱的感觉

张开眼睛
仿佛昨天是一场梦
一刹那又一刹那的出现在眼前
像梦境绚丽又漂浮

我听着他蓝调的旋律
看着他很投入的感觉
回忆起大同在鲁豫里的访问
我好感动

我早已不记得以前执着成就的那一回事
只想好好快乐的活下去
做着自己喜欢的事情
像大同一样享受自己的音乐

他的魅力远远超乎于我预期的
不管是Michael Jackson的Bad
Los Lobos的La Bamba
Stevie Wonder的Superstition
还是黑白、Love Song
我的妈呀，他就是方大同！！

 

心中的小孩

 想要长大的感觉

**********
我想每个人都有这样的感觉...

小时候总是充满好奇，期待自己长大后像街上走着的人们一样，属于自己的年代；像日剧里的大人一样，追逐梦想。渐渐地你发觉走在路上擦肩而过的不再是大人，你明白自己活了二十个年头，小时候期待长大的感觉没有了。

或许有个时候，你会害怕时间。挂在墙上的时钟走得比十年前快，你突然担心起身体内细胞的变化，我们都明白Mitch Albom说的这句话：“If you're always battling against getting older, you're always going to be unhappy, because it's going to happen anyhow.”


我开始明白...

年老经衰，只不过是舞台上的演绎；有上场的时候，也有下场的时候，每个人一生中都扮演着不同的角色；现在我们都明白年龄算不了什么，他只不过是个角色。

I am every age, up to my own.

Japon

最近吹起日本风

日本或是许多女生的梦想
身边像傻婆、波波就去过无数次日本
芹卡勒纳一家几个月前也走了一圈回来
日本也是昭莹的终极梦想
慧诗，就是那个有半个日本血统的男人的女人，想去北海道

我想或许我不是女生，虽然我粉爱日剧
可是对日本暂时没什么向往
会有种感觉.....日本是有钱的时候我才会去度假的地方
对，是度假，不是背包 ^^

知道卓恩和波波落实明年二月去日本
让我很想参与一脚
跟一群朋友去日本，我想一定别于背包的感觉
况且三千大元包机票的预算很吸引人 (因为住宿不用钱)
让我有点心动

可是一分钟后，就被理智拉了回来
一想到自己一月将会探访老挝十八天，就觉得自己有点过分
而且或许时间许可我的taj mahal之旅将会实现
认识我的人都知道我热爱印度就像昭莹热爱日本一样
那是我二十一岁的梦想
所以我无法不时时刻刻提醒自己的责任
我最大的目标就是要好好读书
满是planning的状态下
我很知足，暂时任何奢想都没有

日本就这样说拜拜了
さようなら~
Au revoir~

crazy!

the work of cleaning a house
first thing first, tidy up my room
of course get rid of all my notes and past year papers
it become like this

i used to sort out my notes subject by subject every time after exam
and this is what i have done in two times exam preparation
seriously this is freaking crazy than yesterday night
i must be mad of taking UOL

how do i handle this notes and study guides now
save it until i graduate, then burn it?

a life, not a toy

i just don't understand
why has no one listen to me when i was refuse to raise her
and you guys insist you can take care her by yourselve
even know you need to work in late

day after day you blame me about the ignorance
i was told you i have no any responsible to her at the first place
because i know i have not much patient and time for her

i help if only my assistance able
it's not means that i took the responsible
and i should do it for her
you got to clear that what have i claimed my position in earlier

i just feel ridiculous some time
you shouldn't pissed off
think about what you have promised
look at your dog
how long she have not been caring by you

i admit i don't like a dog
not because they look so irritating
the only reason is i know i'm not able to hold a life yet

i got poison!

i got a swollen finger

has bitten by a sting bug this morning

when i was waiting ktm

sob sob

using swollen finger to hold camera is not easy

writing even hard

aweful~

-17th May 2010-

21st years old 7months and 7days

it has been annoyed me since my preparation of exam
seriously i can't bear for my messy hair anymore
i have no 1minute to hesitate about this question
but sis gives me a hesitate staring

it recalls me.....
i was crying when the last time barber cut short my hair
there is many years ago
mom took me to cut short my hair
when i was transferred into ch primary sch

and now....the same thing happened
but i'm feeling pleasure this time ^^

-15th May 2010-

how i wish

how i wish i could lie on beach now
i need a long vacation
having a blank moment
no internet, no computer, no tvb
reading a favor book
this is my life

how i wish i could stay one more day
with sunshine and ocean
unfortunately i have no time
neither go earlier nor back later
french class and Khalil concert packed
this is my life

13May, only God know

12May2010. I remember i started study at 14:30
13May2010. I remember i started exam at 14:00

22:42 now
my eyelid are hundred tons of weight

about 20hours of studying
3hours struggling in exam hall
and 2.5hours steamboat followed
feeling so exhausted yet excited
May is gotta have lot of fun ;)

however
be worried
in the deepest heart
i could only tell myself
i pray for it since day to night
let god decide whether i deserve for it

if screw up
i may not have a reason to continue my study
world is reality
it may be a doomsday for me
..life is never easy

******



im thinking a 100 things i should do in holiday
included have a LC-A♥

12May, Absence

I suppose to resit the previous paper on later 2pm, but i made a decision. Due to not much effort that i have put into this subject, and lesser preparation than my last attempted, i should not sit for the exam, tho there are 3 max attempt and only latest mark will be reflect.

Anyway, i wasted 85pounds this year :/ i don't know why i paid rm700+...dad will kill me. i gotta make sure i can score 80 above next year. cause my first half unit only get 40marks, and thus an average of 60.

To classify 2nd upper class, i gotta make sure there are 2 foundation units are awarded on 2nd upper class(60marks). Since i have taken all the foundation units, this resit is become important.

Examination make me strongly feeling that im a student. But it came too late, i will attend my last paper on tomorrow. and the next one, would be on may 2011. Blessing me~~

11may, First Paper

the first time im praying so so so so hard
i know, because it's yet to push hardest
that's why i was keep collecting 'good luck' from my friends
hope it really works

3 hours exhausting in exam hall
press hardest to my calculator
hope that could get full marks in my Calculation
also trying to aggregate marking to 34, passing rate
it is not so easy, uh...(*blessing* again)...
well, i really tried
even i wasn't memorize the Theory question

7pm got back home
am feeling so so so tired
cooking 十全大补汤 now
recharging myself for the next fighting
tho it is somehow being sick to study
but then jojo is very annoying now
because of the smell of soup pervaded the house
arghhh! im going to kill her and add in to my soup!!

Google World.

看了小莹的*HARLO DEAR*，让我背包瘾压抑不住的发作。所以即刻点进了我的阿部格，也想share share本人的google程序。哈哈，抄他家的topic是有点怪怪的感觉啦~

我通常都是突如其来的热血，某电视节目像Travel&Living和HistoryChannel，或者是‘向世界出发’，是我最大的启发。 所以Jordan, Cuba, Mexico...etc..都成了我爱的国家。

1。Destination
热血后就会上google冲浪(译surfing)。都冲什么？这个时候如果冲Lonelyplanet.com、roughguide这些网有点难度，都是些地方介绍。所以我会冲游记，像“墨西哥游记”诸如此类的。中英都查，还有会点选“部落格”选项，然后save进favor list（agar agar看过）。

2。Budget
再来，google消费。对于一个很穷的学生，整个行程的消费非常关键。所以会特别冲别人的花费和当时带去的现金。

3。AirTicket
冲各国的廉价航空，确定平时的票价。

这个阶段其实还纯属热血，没有什么实际上的行动。

4。Confirm
当收到AirAsia的subsribe-*大促销*的时候，我就会上AA网调查折扣机票。基于之前的功课，所以自然而然你知道什么是便宜，然后抓紧机会买了它！

5。Duration
这个时候你会犹豫要买多少天的机票。我会再冲google，锁定景点所需要逗留的时间。参考大家的行程，比如地方A需要至少三天，地方B只要一天，加加埋埋就是你大略的行程天数了。

6。Itinerary
机票买了就是确定行程的时候啦！做了这么多功课，翻查之前存下的游记，仔细看一遍；加，冲一冲地方名，像‘Kuala Lumpur’，一个地方一个地方研究。最后把想去的地方挤进你的Duration里，就完成啦！当然包括traveling的时间，就是普遍应该用什么交通工具，多久可以抵达要去的地方....等等。

7。Accomodation
推荐冲tripadvisor.com。还有google热门旅馆的资料(官网)，和旅人的住宿照片，看看是否有差异或negative评语。然后就可以email有关旅馆，或tick几个理想的旅馆walk-in。

8。Transportation
可以通过住进的旅馆帮忙安排。或，游记里常有人推荐一些司机/导游的号码和email。

9。Tour Guide
我的tourguide就是我一贯会收集的LonelyPlanet。万分好用，里面包括itinerary, history background, map, hotel info, daily budget, 景点票价, transport, culture介绍, local basic language...etc, 应有尽有。

10。Go
可以去自助了！！

嗯，大致上我是这样plan的^^

一张纸、一个人

去了LevArt的《跟我去旅行》，深深地感受到林悦的一字一句。

她把我的心坎看惨了！
旅行最鼓舞我的不尽然是山明水秀，更在意的是风土人情。不管是路上轻轻向你微笑的同路人，还是热情说个不停的建筑师，忍不住约我们共度晚餐的伯伯tim，在我们身边骑单车的shawn，帮我杀了鞋上昆虫的英国女，撞伤了鼻子的澳客，亦或是陪我聊天的柬大学生，卖名信片给我的小家伙，骗我10美金的冒牌导游，销售烤肉串的猪妈妈，他们确确实实的记忆在我的心里。让我期待的或许是那一份人与人的亲切感，和那一份不一样的故事。风景下，凄惨、凋零、优美，因为有着背后的故事。

我的心灵是张白纸。
总是有人问我为什么？每每思考这个问题，我都没有答案。因为我的心灵是张白纸，我需要很多很多很多的冲击，很多很多很多的体验，和感观，让我确确实实地感受生命存在的温度。我就是那么如此地无知。

照片诉说着的故事。
说不上摄影，只能说照相，照相对我来说是为了把最美好的一刻永远留住。我从来都没有想过原来照片是需要灵魂的，他让我体会到照片也有它的生命。映像里诉说的不是最美好的那一刻，而是背后拥有的那一则故事。

***

"There are no random acts...We are all connected...You can no more separate one life from another than you can separate a breeze from the wind..."

----Mitch Albom

变质

乱

复杂的心情

要好好读书谈何容易....


这不是个爱好，不是个兴趣，也不是passion

我在失败中......


这种十字路口的心情

我想倒退回家..


我变了

原本的气质销声匿迹....


我只想大声说，请你回来！！！！！

the first kiss

welcome to my Parker life, he is a Holgian ^-^
yes!! it has also been four months ago since i get developed
wanna thanks Fanny help for developed my first roll :)

im gonna show my failure result..
only 9 pieces out of 16 had successfully developed
sth's wrong with the film size
the dark corner has been cut out = ='

9th December 2009
is bobo birthday ^^

thanks bear, help for fill film :)

side of my condo swimming pool

fish eye + multi-exposure

just the balcony of house
i believe this plant is no longer in house, wilted xD

19th December 2009
Genting Highlands

first trip with uol classmate ;)

Film: Lucky SHD 100 120mm