same same but different

那一天看到同事积极地诉说心情的时候

在facebook向大家致谢关怀的时候

..............

不一样

真的不一样

从小学、中学到大学
小学毕业旅行，选中学，课外活动，暑假打工，选大学，选学科，旅行，法文，半工读
从来都是不可以、不行、不能、不好
所有的事情也习惯地反复去支持自己的行为
在最不开心的时候
也从来没有想过可以得到任何人的支持
总是一个人默默地斟酌

看见她的时候
才发现自己不一样的一面...

五月四号

给亲爱的猪朋狗友，

在我很失落的时候是那天坐在日式火锅前的时候
可以大吃大喝放纵自己是我最大的释怀
十片鲍鱼，十粒爆酱丸
我恨不得把全世界都放进嘴里
在我还没茅塞顿开的时候
很塞
塞惨了
眼泪都流不出来了
多得猪朋狗友的支持
你一句他一句很正面
真的不知道要说什么
今天惨雾飘走
阳光明媚  鸟语花香
我希望永远记得这一天
猪朋狗友们的支持
要好好努力

原来....蓝色是快乐

♫♫ chips chips chips
da di du di du~
ci bum ci bum bum ♫♫ ♫

同样的星期一
同样的，我坐在巴士后座
打开《First They Kill My Father》
发黄的纸
黄昏的余晖
故事说着作者的生活背景
图像一幕幕一幕幕地像掠过的车辆、树木擦身而过
打开眼睛的时候
才发现
原来从来都没有遗失过
再次沉浸在那多年前拾起书本的记忆
原来如此
当时无法回到初次拿起小说的感觉
是因为心境不一样了
忙着烦恼的时候
把我带到了另一个自己
什么也思考不到
盼望着下一秒、下一天
期待美好的时刻
却错过了最美好的时刻

那个时候以为自己踩空了
生活失去中心的时候
才发现
自在带来了快乐
像结束了一样
没有什么可以再失去了
没有拥有过又如何失去
可以做的事情依然还有很多
如果依照自己的生活方式违反了大众的观点
那又如何
生命渐渐消失的时候
回忆起快乐的人是谁?

Being a Buddhist, Pa believes in visions, energy fields, seeing people's aura, and things other people might view as superstitious. An aura is a colour that your body exudes and tells the observer what kind of person you are; blue means happy, pink is loving, and black is mean. 
-《First They Kill My Father》Loung Ung 

十常八九

老样子
烦恼很多  眼泪成灾
不开心的事十常八九

开心的事却简单美丽
看到熊猫打滚
很想拥抱它

管不了未来了
在等待未来的时候现在都跑走了
我只能说要快乐的活下去

- - - - - - - - - - - -

考完试后
像结束了一样
谁都没有想过原来我也会有失去目标的时候
大笑一声
日子依然要过

说再见还是说嗨
命运自有主张

08-05-2011

It was the first Sunday in the month of May - 8th. Wake up in the morning by the ringing of my lovely cow alarm clock, I open my eyes, and ready for the coming excitement of the day. After a year long of googling in internet and struggling of the dazzling models in market, I decided to get myself an intelligence imaging product which announced in August of 2010 - Nikon D3100.

The reason why I choose N is just because I like Nikon. In despite of the inconvenient brought by the no built in AF motor in body, I feel comfortable with the extreme contrast colour bring into the image. I chose the basic model of DSLR is because it's the best camera I could buy within my budget constraint, and which produce the best image quality (IQ) between the range; and I do believe that lens contribute IQ more than the body do, so why not save the few pennies for my next lens.

Looking at this little N, I was hardly to believe it's in my hand now. But a completely dazed is unavoidable, even I was simply taking a 100 pictures in my house. Overall, so far so good, I believe it could save the joyful moment coming next.

Testing 1 2 3:

Fatty Jo
















Rolling Panda, lovely!!











A pleasure day











Go green















First manual lesson,
yellowish can get rid by WB setting.

-END-

...

exam will be held in two more days
I am totally not in the aura
focus focus focus
every night every morning i murmur to myself 
I tell myself study is the only way to survive
apparently it doesn't work

this feeling is terrible
why I can't just be a good girl
stay calm
being a good student good daughter
just like others
 
damn the complicated human behavior
what can i do if i failed to reach the current objective
i feel so wimpy